Wednesday, December 8, 2010
I went the longest I've ever gone without talking to my sister, a whole month. between traveling, miscommunication, lost phone, possessive boyfriend, tropical islands, and just a general feeling of hermitness I kind of blocked out the world for a month. I'm back now, I had 4 much needed meetings in one day and they all went insanely well. First off I'll tell you all that I signed on to do the first season of "the untitled audrina project" on VH1. Start filming the first week of January 2011, I'm trying to think of a New Years resolution but there is honestly nothing in my life I would change right now. Being capable of feeling content is freedom. I have found the joy in grocery shopping, cooking, organizing, landscape artistry... etc. when you find joy in everyday things nothing can stop you from feeling weightless.
So back to this tv show, I am having the big meeting with Burnett in a few days, but I really hope I get to have some creative input. Audrina is an exectutive producer, not exactly sure what that entails but I'm jealous. I'm so proud of her, she had the balls to just up and leave everything she knew and move into a little apartment in a big city with a few girls she found in an ad. one thing led to another and now look where she is?! see, girls, you can do anything if you really want it, do not listen to the haters and do not give up on your dreams.
I know what my dream is, I want to be the head of an empire. I'm starting with my Elizabeth Knight cosmetic line, I have it carved in my heart that I need to make certain that my best friend is immortalized and her parents are honored in the process. I miss her so much, I avoid driving on the 22 at all costs, I was forced to due to a detour yesterday and I balled my eyes out en route. People give you odd looks when you are listening to Taylor Swift and crying while sitting in traffic. Usually that cd works, makes me happy, appreciative.
Back to this whole tv show, what would you guys like to see? I want to film the process of creating a makeup line, show people that it is NOT as glamourous as it sounds. I also am starting a foundation that will work to empower women all over the world, starting with the ones in my neighborhood. Everyone deserves to feel confident and beautiful in their own skin. I've been working hard to put a team of women together who understand my vision and feel passionate about what I am trying to do. So far things are beyond my expectations and I couldn't ask for a better group of beautiful, powerful, intelligent women to join me on my journey. I've already started designing shoes as well, I am constantly on the search for things I come up with in my head and they never exist. This is my solution haha.
WHAT WOULD YOU GUYS LIKE TO SEE ON THE NEW TV SHOW?
Friday, September 3, 2010
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Monday, August 23, 2010
People always ask why is everyone so obsessed with doing charity overseas when there are people right here in our own backyards that need help? are we so naive we don't just praise the lord that people are helping one another whether near or far? I have heard so many horror stories about the aftermath in Haiti.
I was sponsoring a young boy there and I still don't know if he is ok, the letters and drawings have stopped coming.
I read an article and I cannot help but get the shivers everytime I think about it. (my daughter is two and this makes me want to fly over to haiti and take all those women and children and sneak them home in my suitcase!!) I am going to simply re-type it... here we go..
"A New Tragedy Facing Haiti's Women and Girls"
"The massive earthquake that struck Haiti on January 12 and lasted 35 seconds. But women and girls there are still feeling devastating aftershocks in the form of rampant sexual violence. The sprawling tent cities housing thousands of displaced Haitians have, experts say, become epicenters of sexual assault, where victims as young as two are reportedly being raped every day. Although reliable data is difficult to come by, the Haitian antiviolence group KOFAVIV tracked 230 rapes in just 15 camps in port-au-prince in one nine-week period. (and consider that there are more than 500 camps in the capital.)
Even before the quake, rape in Haiti was staggeringly common. But now the tent cities lack security, privacy and lighting, and "rape is rising because women have nowhere to go to be safe, and hardly anywhere to turn for help," Says Beverly Bell, founder of Other Worlds, a social justice advocacy group. In one horrific case, an 18 year old was gang raped so violently that she could not walk the next day it took eight days for her to get treatment. In Port-au-Prince, a women said something Bell can't forget: "The way you saw the Earth shake, that's how our bodies are shaking now." Perpetrators often attack at night, preying on women while they use dark latrines or sleep next to their children. One mother told Bell that she sleeps with a machete under her mattress. Other women try never to sleep at all.
Startlingly, some have this could have been prevented. Experts have long known that violence against women often increases after a disaster. That was seen in Indonesia after the 2004 Tsunami, and even here in the United States after Hurricane Katrina. "When police stations and courts are destroyed, women become more vulnerable than ever," says TAINA BIEN-AIME, Executive director of the international group Equality Now. Add men's post-disaster anger and desperation to the mix and women's bodies become targets. What do Haiti's women need right now? Advocates say that no real safety will come without better housing. But more security patrols, lighting and separate bathrooms within the camps would be a start, and you can help.
a $50 donation to KOFAVIV at madre.org helps provide women with a security kit that includes a flashlight, whistle and a cell phone. "Until the rights of women and girls are protected," says Bien-Aime, "This country can never recover."
This got me scouring the web, looking for more information and ways that I can contribute. There is nothing that breaks my heart more than violence against women in ANY shape or form. Even if all you can do is bring awareness, pray for the women and children all over the world, no matter their condition... from the lonely housewife who seems to have everything to the woman living under a tarp in the worst living conditions imaginable, we all need to stick together. Love your sisters, tell a stranger that she is gorgeous. My mother in law is a true inspiration, she is just as loving, warm, and kind of a person whether it be a complete stranger in need, her own mother in law who recently moved in three doors down because she is suffering from alzheimer's, any one of her 11 grandbabies... or a dying woman in a remote part of Kenya which she frequents often. She has told me stories of being in Africa and feeling so useless, not being a doctor and just seeing so much tragedy and pain, her friend there Sister Frieda said something so profound that it made me cry when I heard the story.. something along the lines of ...it means enough just to sit with someone in pain, desperation, any condition that is not favorable... you can hold their hand, pray for them, just be there with them... It's so true. Our time is our most valuable gift.
Monday, August 16, 2010
so I did a photoshoot with skinnie magazine for their november issue last week... I feel really weird cuz they talked me into wearing a swimsuit, mostly because the boss and this amazing woman michelle designed and hand made it, but this was the photo my makeup artist took in the bathroom when we were getting me all bronzy with elizabeth knight. the actual bikini photos are not as revealing i am in a weird hammock and you can only see my face and forearms.. hopefully they turn out cool. i am NOT a model. so i started cracking up when the photographer actually said the words "seduce the camera" I was LIKE NO WAY you guys actually say that??? i thought it was only in the movies hahahaha... wellll... anyways. i love my husband, this was the photo i sent him to get the thumbs up on wearing a bathing suit in public. i don't actually look that good, its the angle. don't be fooled i am a mama.
ok i am still reading all of the entries for the elizabeth knight giveaway! you guys rule!
oh and I made a new lipstick strictly for this fall.. it's called undercover lover and it's super gothic maroon. ive been wearing it all day everyday, blue ashbury's and maroon lipstick are actually an amazing combo....
k happy birthday to me in the last photo, my last minute birthday started rad as we went to see one of my very dear friends beau play with his band bless the fall at the paladium... and then after dinner it just sucked super hard, about five minutes after the last photo was taken i was crying in drais nightclub because i got yelled at by my super drunk friend for her ex boyfriend telling me happy birthday....but it got really good once it was kyle, me, our best friends jeremy and carly all in our hotel room in bed watching movies and stuffing our faces with room service...
love you all. i can't wait to share my passion of beautifulness with you. i almost want to launch elizabeth knight in europe first! everyone help me get to paris, i need to meet some real women all over the world.
Saturday, August 14, 2010
I've had a super jacked up back and they've been doing steroid epidural injections, then they tell me to take it easy. Really?! I have so much pent up aggression right now. I hobble around and everyone makes fun of me, you're not funny you idiots. Put me in an awkward situation ill tell it just how it is. I will not apologize for not being pretentious. I don't need negativity in my life, I don't need high school drama, if you don't want to hear my truth then you should just stop while you're ahead.
If something is bothering you, speak up. Nothing ever became of the passive aggressive human who kept their mouth shut. Holding in all those hurt feelings of animosity will eat YOU alive, not the other person.
Whether you tell your problems to a punching bag, the gym, cry a river, scrub your house until it is spankin', do not fail to address the real issue at hand.
Love is not always comfortable, life is not always comfortable! When you care about someone you take the extra effort to step out of the batter's box.
My impatience has given me no time to fabricate intricate tales embellished with spits of truth.
The times when you claim "I'm just so confused, I don't know what to do" ... Those are when you know EXACTLY what to do. You're just trying to a. change your own mind or b. Blame the decision your about to make going against your inner voice on someone else.
There is a reason that the saying life is short is so cliche.
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Wednesday, August 11, 2010
1. There are none.. Hahahaha
Whoever is interested I want you to create something that transpires the meaning of what beauty means to you..
Be completely honest and don't hold anything back. It can be a photo, drawing, poem, essay, even an act of kindness- do something that impacts anothers life in a big way and write about your experience.... I will then pick the top ten and send the winners a mystery elizabeth knight product. Mind you these are prototype packaging with experimental logo placement but the actual makeup is to die for. Not really, I would never in a million years condone dying for makeup.
K love you all little sugar medallions. Good luck! The wait won't be much longer...
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Friday, July 30, 2010
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Thursday, July 29, 2010
Today we went down to the los angeles coliseum and kyle registered and did a bunch of interviews, ill post the stuff they did for shark week if I can find any online. On another note how rad is it that there is a race for adaptive racers? One of the coolest races to watch in my opinion!
It seems like everyone is down and out this year in moto world, best trick is left to a bunch of unheard of dudes trying to pull double backflips and frontflips... Let's pray it doesn't turn into a crashfest.
What are your guys' favorite Xgames competitions? Ill be back out there tomorrow, what do you want me to get my digital eyes on?
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Monday, July 12, 2010
Sunday, July 11, 2010
Most people would rather piss and moan about another person's life than take any action in their own. I've done a lot of dumb things in my life, but honestly I wouldn't be where I am right at this moment if I wouldn't have learned from them. For every heartbreak you endure is freedom to the path of appreciating prince charming! I wish I could just give a little hope to anyone who has been put in a unfavorable situation that for reasons beyond their grasp they just can't break away. You don't need anyone in your life but GOD.
When someone breaks your heart, and I mean rips it to shreds, don't try and be a tough guy, feel the feelings, cry a little (in my case A LOT), then forgive them in your heart and move on. I'm not saying I don't believe in second chances, I do. BUT I have learned first hand that there is someone out there who is going to love everything about you and love you enough to not even want to chance hurting you, let alone losing you.
the smartest thing you can do is to put your pride aside and learn from other's mistakes. Don't be the stubborn one who has to do things the hard way( it's ignorant to be proud of a trait like that. ) gather knowledge, take people's advice into consideration, give people the benefit of the doubt, don't make your boyfriend/girlfriend suffer by torturing them with fits of jealousy because you were hurt in the past. learn to let go, learn to trust, learn to really truly love with all your heart, only then are you living.
Tuesday, June 29, 2010
Monday, June 28, 2010
Also, doing so will prevent stretch marks. I don't drink anything except water, and milk.. water with no ice in restaurants. OH and I have another secret, I used this special oil that my sister in laws dad invented. I'm trying to convince him to let me market it!
After your bundle of joy is born, use those tittys for their God given reason! Trust me, there is nothing better than snuggling your newborn and bonding. You won't feel guilty for letting the house go because your body needs the rest and everytime you nurse feel good chemicals are released to your brain to help you relax and deal with the stress of having a new baby. There are other reasons that you are meant to breast feed besides the fact that the whole reason your body stores fat while you are pregnant.. MATERNAL FAT... it's for breastfeeding! It's a gift, say you have a difficult birth and couldn't go out and hunt for food (reverting to my theory of the original plan for mommy bodies), your baby wouldn't suffer because your body has a backup plan. By no means should you ever starve yourself, I know how exhausting being a new mother is, and it is very important to eat, so you should accept all the help that is offered. Have someone close to you set up at least two weeks after you arrive from the hospital of friends and family members to bring you dinner and stock your fridge with healthy snacks and tons of water. If you don't have the resources than use those last few weeks of nesting energy to make lots of sauce and things to freeze that your partner in baby-making can unthaw and throw together.
The one thing that was very very important to me was stretching, with Sadie all I had to do was pamper myself inside and out, I created the perfect regimen. It was a lot harder with my son, I gained 40 pounds and it took a giant toll on my lower back. Carrying around that much extra weight when your joints are loose and your muscles aren't prepared for it is really really hard on your body. Simple stretches suffice, try to do them all throughout your pregnancy and continue after. Once your doctor gives you the heads up to exercise utilize the stroller. Go for walks, lots of walks, do squats while you are bouncing your little one back to sleep at night.
And eventually, I promise, you will need some mommy time.. just stay awake after you get up for that butt crack of dawn feeding and leave your man to snuggle the munchkins while you put your earphones on and crank your favorite NON baby related playlist, and go outside and run (or borrow that dog again). Clear your mind and just run. I've still got 10 pounds to lose, and my lower back has kept me from doing anything other than stretching and walking, but you know what, it is ok with me. I've just given birth to a child! If that is not the best excuse in the universe to be comfortable with your body, I don't know what is.
think of your body as a lambo.. would you pour windex in its gas tank? no? hmmm then why would you want to put junk into your beautiful body? would you feed your newborn child a whole bag of flamin' hot cheetos dipped in cream cheese? I don't think so sister! Plus, if you eat all those cliche foods that children are supposed to refuse when you are pregnant, they will love them when they start eating solids. And remember monkey see, monkey do. =)
La La Love you all. And I hope that answers some of your questions about babies and pregnancy.
I was appalled by the information (by suggestion) that maquillage has a 400% mark up! wow dude, wow.. I just find that disgusting, If I can provide for all the ladies out there and I have the resources available I feel it is my duty to carry out my mission.
I've been blessed to have the smart friends I have to help me out with all the nitty gritty. I've found the hardest part is choosing a name. Everything tends to confine the label to a specific image and the fun for me in maquillage is change. One day you feel like being a saucy vixen with ruby red lips and a slinky gown, the next you may want to go naturel with some hydrating lip balm and a fined tuned set of brows add that to your glowing skin and you can't go wrong.
I still need unique, flawed, REAL, beautiful women to inspire me, also I want to incorporate non plastic faces into my advertising campaign when it comes time.
Non, je ne regrette rien
Thursday, June 24, 2010
I love my family so so much! had such a great time at the getaway house, it's good for the soul to wake up at 5am and just look out over the water and be still with yourself. My little sister Samantha is breathtakingly gorgeous and we did a few photoshoots which I am going to post one up in a few hours. I had fun playing dress up, she's my little doll and I got a sample batch of product done for my makeup line so I got to play around with that and style her and try some different looks with her hair. I love it. My parents were both laughing and saying that perhaps all the money they spent on carpet cleaners in front of my closet mirror from playing with makeup and creating different looks is finally going to pay off.
I have been wanting to pursue this mission for 5 years now and could never take that initial leap, you know the one where you let go of one trapeze swing to grab onto the other? That's what my meeting was about tonight, I'm following my passion. You can't fail if you never try right? Also, I am going to need some face models in the Orange County, Los Angeles area, I prefer a diverse few... naturally beautiful, unique, strong women. Stereotypical generic features, I love you, we all do, but I need an array of faces that inspire me.. bring me your beautiful flaws, I want scars, I want freckles, I want crooked noses broken playing the sports that bring you happiness, if you are reading this thinking I could never apply, you are what I want. I want to inspire the felines of this shallow world to love their god given faces, I want to show you how to enhance the beauty you've been handed instead of hiding it. Charming delusion ...
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Wednesday, June 16, 2010
This photo depicts exactly how I feel right now...Day 3 of cleanse, we ended up pretty much just fasting yesterday because I couldn't handle the taste/smell anymore, cheated and ate 3 pistachios around midnight... Kyle did the honors and called the owner Tim and had him switch over to the sweet tooth program. Determined not to quit!! I must admit though the extra 50 bucks for agave (which I could've gotten at Henry's market) is pretty steep.. It's 3pm and I'm still on the first one with ten more to go for the day.. apparently you can get away with only drinking half pints throughout the day. I think today may just be the last day I can handle it.